A person can always think that a person like Haman is not guilty for his actions, since he can’t help himself. However, when Haman became angry at Mordechai, it says: וַיִּתְּאַפַק הָמָן וַיָבוֹא אֶל בֵּיתוֹ ה י he restrained himself, and he went home first. Showing self-restraint was perhaps the proof that Haman would get killed soon. When he showed that he was capable of such an unusually good Midda; now he’s dead! Eisav told Yaakov: הַלְּעִּיטֵּנִּי נָא תולדות כה ל “feed me, please”; he spoke with Derech Eretz by saying: נָ א “please”, and proved that he had potential Eidelkeit; soon after, he lost his Olam HaBah. And the same with: מִּצְּרַיִּם נֹסֵּעַ אַחֲרֵּיהֶם בשלח יד י “Mitzrayim (singular) was coming after them” and Rashi says: בְּ לֵּ ב אֶ חָד כְּ אִּ יש אֶ חָ ד with “one” heart, like “one” person. Now they showed that they were capable of Achdus, which was similar to Klal Yisroel when they were Zoche for Kabolas HaTorah. (Rashi).
So soon after, they drowned. מִּדָה טוֹבָה מְּרוּבָה How much more is this true in a positive way! When a person does a big sin, he should be Dan himself L'kaf Zechus and say: “Look what a terrible Koach I have; see how rarely I use it!” Be: מֵּ לִּ יץ יוֹשֶ ר stick up for yourself! Instead of saying: “It’s scary how jealous I am, and what a Ka'asan I am, or what Bittul Torah I was Nichshal in, or what Ta'ava I have!”, say: “Look at such potential that I have to battle with!”
This can be why our king Dovid was an Admoni (like Eisav), which is a terrible handicap; this makes him Davka unusually great, having to conquer such a difficult Yetzer Hara. In general, Dovid is our man, since a Melech is the: לֵּב heart of Klal Yisroel. (Rambam). He is perfect for so many of us, who feel like we have too many Nisyonos or Aveiros. Look at Dovid!
Judge Yourself L'kaf Zechus: The One Time You Succeeded, THAT Is the Real You
On Shushan Purim, a friend of mine wasted his whole day doing zero, and he got depressed. I told him that he should be proud of himself, since he usually uses his time wisely, despite the fact that he is prone to be such a time waster, and this gives him much more Schar. This is true of so many Chesronos that we all have; we need to be happy that so often we aren’t what we could be, in Ka'as, Ta'ava, Kin'ah, being mean, sloppy, and all kinds of Chesronos.
