HE IS HAPPY WITH HIS TRYING AND STARTING; REGARDLESS IF HE IS REALLY “MAKING IT”
Notice by the Bracha the Torah doesn’t elaborate: “If you will do the Mitzvos” just: וּעְמְשִׁתּ רֶשֲׁא if you will listen; whereas by K'lala the Torah goes into the details of: םֶתְּרַסְו the actual wrong behaviors. It sounds like as long as you “listen”, and you are M'kabel & try, you already have a Bracha.
Similarly, it says: וּעְמְשִׁתּ ַﬠֹמָשׁ םִא הָיָהְו גי אי בקע and Rashi says: ַﬠֹמָשׁ means even a little, then: וּעְמְשִׁתּ you will be Zoche to much more. Moshe Rabeinu was the greatest person who ever lived. Yet, he is loaded with trying and starting; yet not really making it. Rashi says that the Yidden get the credit for burying Yosef (since they completed the Mitzva) even though Moshe was the one who began the Mitzva, by looking for Yosef’s body in Mitzrayim, while everyone else was busy getting gold from the Mitzri'im.
Similarly, Moshe set aside three: ָﬠ ֵר ִמ י ְק ָל ט Arei Miklat (cities of refuge) in Ever HaYarden, which couldn’t accomplish anything anyway until the other three were designated in Eretz Yisroel. And Moshe only “saw” Eretz Yisroel, without ever entering. If you’re always trying and wanting to finish Shas or being a big Tzaddik - yet you aren’t making it - maybe you have a Shoresh or a Kesher with the Neshama of Moshe Rabeinu...
Of course, we have no Shaychus with understanding these things; but for sure the stories of our greatest person should give us much Chizuk. Moshe Rabeinu was probably the happiest and the most accomplished person that ever lived. He was known as an Eved Hashem. The Anav Mi'kol Adam couldn’t care less about how “well” he was doing. He was a person who was constantly in touch with Hashem with plenty of Mussar on Emuna and Bitachon, and he was detached from the Olam HaZeh ways of thinking (people’s opinions, etc.).
He tolerated all the horrific Lashon Hara about him, and all the ungratefulness. He is the example for all of us. You do the best you can; you don’t need all those successes, which are usually Redifas HaKavod or Ga'ava ( יִדָי םֶצֹעְו יִחֹכּ “my” accomplishments). It’s all Hevel, and when you keep learning Mussar, nothing bothers you (with Hashem’s help). On the contrary: אָרְגַא אָרֲﬠַצ םוּפְל תובא ה כב the difficulty only adds to your reward. This is why Moshe was so successful, because he didn’t care about being a Mutzlach and a winner.
"I try so hard to be nice, and I’m still not appreciated.” I wish I would work harder on Kedusha, or learning, or Tz'niyus...” The Alter Zatzal says that all you have to do is try as best you can, and then you will get Si'ata D'shmaya.
