This is the fourth time that Moshe said that he’d rather not go. Each time he has a different reason not to go. First: מ יַ אָנֹכ יַַגַ יא Who am I? Second: ו ה ןַלֹאַי אֲמ ינוַּל יַו לֹאַי שׁ מ עוַַּב קֹל יַַדַא They won’t believe me. Third: לֹאַא ישַַׁד בָר יםַאָנֹכ יַַדַי I am not a man of words. And fourth: שׁ ל חַ נָאַ ב י דַ ת שׁ לָחַַדַ יג Please! Send someone more appropriate! This is truly mind boggling. Hashem Himself is telling Moshe to go, and he has all kinds of reasons not to! Of course, we have no understanding of this whole Parsha and the greatness of Moshe. Yet, for ourselves, we have a great lesson.
שֶּׁ ב עַ י פוֹלַ צ ד יקַ וָקָ םַַמשליַ כדַ טז A Tzaddik falls seven times, and gets up. This is the process of every Tzaddik. All your lack of belief, difficulties in Bitachon, and all other areas are normal! And look how Moshe talks “Heimish” to Hashem. Perhaps this is exactly why he was so great; he had a normal relationship, and his Emuna was real, like the Torah describes him as: פֶּהַאֶּלַפֶּהַאֲד בֶּרַבוַֹבהעלותךַיבַחַ speaking to Hashem face to face.
It appears like the greatest of all Ma'aminim struggles with Emuna, and this gives us loads of Chizuk.
