We surely cannot truly understand Moshe Rabeinu, but we certainly have plenty to learn for our own issues. Look how much he has a give and take with Hashem Himself. He hesitates again and again, back and forth, and he loses Kehuna Gedola and many more problems. He also causes Hashem to get angry with him, etc. He is making mistakes all over the place, yet he is Moshe Rabeinu, the greatest human that ever lived.
I know a Yid in Eretz Yisroel who is a famous Adam Gadol. He gives a high-level Shiur, and is renowned for his Yiras Shamayim and all kinds of high Madregos, which are way above even our greatest Tzadikim. He is heavily involved in thanking Hashem regularly, and he has loads and loads to thank for, much, much more than the most successful people in the whole world, in Ruchaniyus and Gashmiyus.
However, this person is still a human being (although even Gedolei Yisroel consider him like a Malach), and he has a single serious weakness which is totally unknown. In that area, he is Mamash super weak, with no M'halech (way) how to deal with it. By the way, he is not alone. There are many “giants” out there, who can have strong weaknesses, that you and I don’t even have. But they are still great people.
Thank Hashem for Your Painful and Embarrassing Weakness
When he thanks Hashem, he spends the lion’s share of his Thank-You’s on his painful and embarrassing weakness! He thanks for all those times that he was able to overcome it, all those Kabalos (resolutions) that he never even kept, and all those outrageous inconsistencies in this area. He is totally M'sudardik (orderly) and phenomenally Oisgehalten (perfect all around); a real: כַָלַבוַֹ (jack of all trades), a: בָק י (he knows a lot) and a: יףַר ַחַָ razor-sharp mind. He’s “got it all”.
But in his weak area he is nowhere! Yet, his main Thank You’s are for the fact that he wants so much to improve, and his striving to have better Retzonos. He has volumes of what he calls his greatest Tzidkus; i.e., all those many failed attempts to improve. And when he succeeds, he considers it like Moshiach just came...
In the Sefer T’nuas HaMussar there is a small biography of a Kelmer Baal Mussar who was mainly known for being an Oved (one who serves Hashem seriously). He worked and worked on himself! In the world of truth this is the Ikar, and not all those Hatzlachos, since most of them could be: י ַרוּתוֹשׁ in the genes from his parents, or simply having an easy nature in these areas.
The outside world is only impressed with his accomplishments, but his struggles have no value; people would look down at him if they knew about those struggles. Look how the Torah elaborates about Moshe Rabeinu’s weakness. People don’t believe in: ל פוּםַצ עֲרָ אַַ א ג רָ אַַאבותַהַכב the reward is according to your effort, and ר ח מָ נָאַל יבָאַבָע י Hashem looks at our intentions. All they like is successes, which are much more Kavod oriented. A Yid has to serve Hashem and not people.
