Striving and trying and seeking for perfection is an ongoing state for all those noble souls בֵל חַמְשִׂייֵשְׁקַבְמ 'התהלים קה ג Rejoice all you SEEKERS of Hashem! As long as you are a M’vakesh (seeker), this is quite an accomplishment, since it’s the opposite of Yi'ush. R' Yisroel Salanter Zatzal said: ֵא ַמ ןי ֲח ָל ְכּ ה ַמ ֲח ַל ַה ת ִיאוּשׁ the worst sickness is giving up and despairing of all those wonderful forms of Shleimus that are available to all humans; each in his own way.
If you spend your entire life just wishing and desiring Shleimus, you’ve accomplished worlds. You are the opposite of Eisav HaRasha, upon whom it says: וָשֵׂﬠ זֶבִיַּו הָרֹכְבַּה תֶאכה לד. Eisav gave up, and started being M'vazeh the Bechora. The harder it is for you to become a true Tzaddik, and yet you continue to aspire despite so much frustration, the more you are a true opposite of Eisav.
Notice how Klal Yisroel was created mostly by the Tefilos of Leah Imeinu, who kept asking not to fall into: וֹלָרוֹג ֶשׁ ֵﬠ ל ָשׂ וי the “lot” of Eisav. Klal Yisroel’s very essence was created by the desires of not leading an evil life (and by: אְרַיַּו 'ה הָאֵל הָאוּנְשׂ יִכּ אל טכ אציו the fact that she was rejected), having all the pain of feeling left-out from the eternal goodness of the truth.
