The example you are illustrating may not be as common as the broader issue you are describing — namely, two spouses who have personalities that clash — which is very common indeed. Sometimes it’s the wife who’s punctual and the husband who is always late; sometimes it’s a husband who is careful with every cent and the wife who spends money without worrying about balancing the checkbook; and sometimes it’s one spouse who’s more social and enjoys going out and spending time with lots of people while the other would prefer to just stay home.
Having personalities that clash doesn’t mean that the underlying relationship isn’t sound, as your description illustrates. You write that you have wonderful shalom bayis and this is something to be truly grateful for. There’s no reason for any relationship to be spoiled, or seen as problematic, due to one area of contention, and I’m glad that this isn’t the case here. Unfortunately, sometimes couples blow things out of proportion, assuming that a clash in one area means that there’s a fundamental problem in the marriage.
You describe how your husband sees your tardiness as disrespectful. I don’t know if it will help you to counter this, but perhaps in a gentle and respectful way you can clarify that this is your own issue with which you struggle, and not in any way something that stems from caring less about him or disrespecting him. But regardless of whether he’ll accept that from you, people should definitely try to internalize this important message that differences of personality that affect opinions, taste, preferences, tendencies, or styles, should never be taken personally or viewed as a lack of respect or regard for a spouse.
While being chronically late is a problem that should be addressed, it’s not directed at anyone in particular. It’s fine to ask someone to try to help themselves in this regard, and to put in the effort to make small changes in the right direction and improve gradually, but demanding that someone completely alter their personality in a way that suits you better is both unreasonable and unrealistic. Unless they’re only late when it involves you, chances are that they aren’t late because they don’t respect or appreciate you, but rather because that’s who they are.
It’s both unproductive as well as hurtful to say things like, “If you really loved me, you would... ” When it’s a personality issue, it usually has nothing to do with anyone but them.
That said, within any relationship, a person should do what he can to accommodate others within reasonable bounds. And where more so than within marriage? The sefarim say that one of the reasons one is commanded to get married is to overcome the selfish attitudes we have and learn to accommodate others. When one marries he learns that there are other ways of doing things, other valid ways of seeing the world, and other people to take into consideration. Discovering that one’s spouse has a personality that sometimes clashes with our own isn’t the revelation of a fundamental problem — it’s a natural part of the marriage learning experience.
Furthermore, sometimes the fact that the parents are different from one another is an important part of raising healthy children, as this sets up a balance. To give just one example: in most marriages, one spouse is stricter than the other, and this is often helpful in having them together understand and cater to the different natures of their children.
Each spouse should be ready to move toward the other and compromise; neither should expect the other to simply accept them as they are without making an effort to be considerate and try their best to be accommodating.
While both husband and wife should enter marriage ready to learn from each other and slowly adapt and be flexible to somewhat change for each other, it doesn’t mean that both need to do so simultaneously. If you’re the one blessed with the perception and motivation to resolve the issue at hand, then be the one to do something about it on your own. Don’t be afraid to make the first move.
I’m reminded of the old anecdote of an American engineer who comes to Eretz Yisrael to learn how the Jews build their tunnels so quickly. He had been told that there, it takes only half the time it does back home, and he was eager to learn the secret.
“Oh, that’s simple,” a Jewish engineer he’s introduced to tells him. “We don’t just dig from one end — we dig from both sides at once, and we meet in the middle.”
The American engineer thinks for a moment. “Well, I can see how that works,” he admits. “But what happens if you get the calculations wrong and the two sides don’t meet up?”
The Jewish engineer laughs. “Then we end up with two tunnels instead of just one!”
Within marriage, while joint efforts will speed up the results, you can achieve significant change even if only one spouse is making the effort. All the same, in virtually every case, you’ll find that if either the husband or the wife starts digging, the other spouse will end up digging from his side too. Chances are you’ll end up meeting in the middle even if it wasn’t agreed upon in advance.
Therefore, even though you’ve let your husband know that you’re writing to me, I wouldn’t advise you to pressure him to read this article. If he expresses an interest, then that’s great — and if he doesn’t, that’s fine too. Even if your husband sees you changing and doesn’t immediately show any willingness to come towards you and meet you in the middle, that shouldn’t discourage you. In fact, it gives you a certain freedom to make the changes you’re comfortable with, without any pressure from his side to “reciprocate” or make the changes the way he wants you to make them.
You describe two options, him waiting for you, or you waiting for him, but in truth, I’d assume there are many more. When you step out of the stress of a situation and look at things dispassionately, you may be able to see many more creative ways of solving this impasse.
Being that it’s now summer time, let me give the following example. Consider the case of a wife who really wants to visit the kids in camp, and her husband who can’t bear the idea of making the long drive. She’s upset because she’s convinced that it’s vitally important for the kids to see how much they mean to their parents; he’s upset because she’s pressuring him to do something he doesn’t see as necessary.
They can argue over this, with each trying to manipulate the other, and between the lines accusing the other of being a less than caring or respectful parent or spouse. Or, instead of fighting, the two of them can realize that there are third, fourth, and more options. Maybe the wife can make the trip herself, perhaps traveling up with other parents. She doesn’t have to tell the kids, “Your father couldn’t bear the thought of the long drive.” She could make some excuse and the children would probably be perfectly content. Or maybe the husband can figure out another time when he wouldn’t mind making the trip, even if it isn’t the official visiting day, and plan a few things he can do on the way which would make it easier for him. It’s a shame when people argue over two options with one clearly destined to be the winner and the other the loser, if both can be happy, albeit not in the most perfect manner they envisioned.
In almost every situation, and in the one you describe as well, if you think about things calmly, without the pressure of your husband’s displeasure hanging over your head, you’re likely to find other ways of dealing with this issue that you hadn’t thought of before.
Sometimes, couples need to think out-of-the-box in order to move forward in their relationship, and there’s nothing wrong with incorporating “unconventional” ways of doing things from day one, even before issues arise.
