The Yidden were commanded not to ascend Har Sinai, and not even as much as: וּנְ גֹ עַ בְ קָ צֵ הוּ to touch the edge of the mountain. Whoever touches the mountain will be put to death by S’kila (stoning). This is an unusual kind of sin, where a person is Chayav Missa for wanting to go higher in Avodas Hashem and touching Har Sinai. And he gets the worst punishment, S’kila (stoning)! And even for a drop of ascending inappropriately. So many frum people suffer all their lives from their many sins and inabilities to perform properly in Avodas Hashem.
They have deep seated frustration about their weakness in Torah, Tefila, Chesed, Kedusha, and Ka'as, etc. Despite all this frustration, not only do they have to be Sameach B'chelko in Ruchaniyus, but they have to realize that being higher would be Mamash a sin! This makes life much easier. You have to love your present Matzav with all its details, good and bad.
People tell me that they have no Koach to look in a Sefer and work on Bitachon. Actually, just trying to sit back and think positively is like a Mussar Seder of Bitachon, like it says: 'היִלָ חֵ ם לָ כֶם וְאַ תֶ ם תַ חֲ רִ שׁוּן. You keep quiet, and allow Hashem to take over. That: תַ חֲ רִ שׁוּן keeping quiet was so powerful that it brought the end of the entire Malchus Mitzrayim, as it says: ל ֹא תֹ סִ פוּ לִ רְ אֹ תָ ם עוֹד עַ ד עוֹלָ ם. You will never see the Mitzri'im ever again. Similarly, when Chizkiyahu said that he has no Koach for Bitachon, the entire Malchus Ashur was destroyed forever. (Medrash)
Indeed, an inferior Mussar Seder is more difficult, since looking at an inspiring Sefer on Bitachon encourages and boosts you up much more. But when you realize that having a better Seder is Chayav S'kila, then you appreciate the little you do as a Le'chatchila, and it works better.
