Aseres HaDibros starts with: ˃יֶק˄ֱא 'ה יִכֹנָא I am YOUR Hashem [singular] not: ֵק˄ֱאיםֶכ [plural]. So every Yid should feel special as if the Torah was given especially for him, and: םָלוֹעָה אָרְבִנ יִליִבְשִׁבּ the entire universe was created JUST FOR ME. ָי ִח ֶשׁ די ָﬠ ָשׂ ְתּ השׁוּ ָב וֹמ ה ֲח ִל ְל ןי ָכ ָה לעוֹ ָלם כּוּלוֹ ב ופ אמוי Even if just ONE person does Teshuva, the entire world is forgiven. It was given in the Midbar, a spacious place without the restrictions of a city where everyone is boxed in and feels like just another number. Every person has his own unique Kabolas HaTorah.
Preferably, a person should learn on Shavuos as much as he can, like R' Nosson Wachtfogel Zatzal was Noheg did. But if you can’t, then you should know that whatever you can do to show your appreciation for Torah is Kodesh Kodashim, and you should respect what you do! Even eating lots of cheesecake, or the Zechus of feeling frustrated when your learning and Hasmada isn’t what you’d like!
The Ran says that when the Gemara says that the Churban happened because: ֶשׁ ֹל ֵבּ א ְר וּכ ַבּתּ וֹ ָר ְתּ ה ִח ָלה they didn’t say a Bracha before learning Torah, this means that since they weren’t Machshiv their own Torah enough, therefore the Torah didn’t protect them, to save them from the Churban. It is hard work being Machshiv your “B'di'eved" mediocre Avoda. But the more you are Machshiv it, the bigger your Zechus. Your B'di'eved is Le'chatchila in Shamayim. Eat your cheesecake with a Shtoltz!
Even before Shavuos, decide that my Shavuos [whatever form it becomes] is the best, and I will be Zoche to all the: ְס וּגלוֹ ַה ת ְז ַמ ן opportunities of the Yom Tov since: ָנָמְחַרא יֵﬠָבּ אָבּיִל Hashem wants our intentions, ְורוֹמְגִל הָכאָלְמַּה ˃יֶלָﬠ אֹל and you are not expected to do everything!
