Bedikas Chametz with a Scattered Soul

Let’s take the evening of bedikas chametz. It’s a holy and exalted time when we fulfill the mitzvah d’Oraisa of תשביתו, of ridding our homes of chametz, and the Rabbinic institution of בדיקה. It’s the one time in the year that we merit to fulfill this mitzvah. There’s a great inyan of drawing מים שלנו, and Erev Pesach is a day of מחיית עמלק, obliterating Amalek.

But this person barely knows what’s happening with him—especially if he’s at the stage of life when it is, baruch Hashem, filled with responsibilities. He’s no longer a young bachur who has nothing on his mind. This person feels that he’s barely here....