First of all ,I have no words to thank you for the great zikui harabbim you do by spreading the light of emunah all over the world. I always heard about your newsletter, but as the saying goes, seeing is believing. I want to tell my story of hashgacha pratis, and how your newsletter changed my life.
I was full of self-confidence and I thought I had the world at my fingertips. I thought I would buy a large beautiful house, and I would hack it all on my own. I had a good income and countless plans for how to cover payments on a huge mortgage. I spent hours configuring things down to the last detail, reveling in my business prowess and guts.
But Hashem, the true Owner of all homes in the world, revealed Himself to me. He showed me what I should have known to begin with- that He alone can provide me with a home, and if I dreamed of a large and spacious house, all I had to do was turn to Him. On my own, I am powerless, while with Hashem in the picture, anything could happen.
So it happened that I went to contract and a week later, I lost my job. I started missing payments, the brokers were after me, and I was close to losing not only the house but my down payments too. Now I was like a deflated balloon. I walked around in shock, my thoughts circling again and again over the same point as I struggled to find a solution. One day, I sensed that things were really bad. I could not continue putting off my payments. Distraught, I went into my study and locked the door, leafing through the documents on my desk in desperate search for a solution. Among the papers I found a Hashgacha Pratis newsletter from Parshas Va’eira of 5783. I began to read a story entitled- “Who is Truly Rich?” I read/learned it again and again, without exaggeration, for a full hour. It gave me perspective. It gave me chizuk. It brought me back to my senses.
That night, instead of tossing and turning in bed, I took a Chovos Halevavos with me to my room and read the words of bitachon again and again. I continued this practice each night, and despite my dismal financial state, I was sleeping better than ever.
Hashem was calling out to me, and when I heard His call, things almost immediately took a turn. Without any effort on my part, I was offered a new job with excellent pay. I was able to meet my payments easily. Ultimately, I moved into my – excuse me- Hashem’s home.
Hashem should help you to continue spreading the light of emunah and hashgacha pratis.
Y.A., Monsey
