It has been explained in our Torah — and this has also been confirmed by modern science — that a surface layer may cover up an essential trait or quality, or, to use modern terminology, the subconscious may be overlaid by the conscious mind.
In such a case, conflicts are inevitable, for man's essence is linked to the deep internal layers and not the surface “cover,” which itself is subject to change and under the influence of external forces.
For a Jew to eliminate conflict, it is necessary for him to bring to the fore his inner essence, which is his deep-rooted faith in G-d. Failing this, he is bound to feel perturbed, even though the cause may be concealed from him.
In other words, a Jew must live his daily life in accordance with the Torah and mitzvos — the Jewish way of life — for it is only in this way that he can attain true harmony and peace of mind.
Needless to say, it is not easy to transform one's daily life and routine, transforming it into a way of life that has not been practised in the past.
However, inasmuch as this is the will and the directive of G-d, the Creator of man, it is clear that the Creator does not expect the impossible from His creatures, and that He has provided every Jew with the ability to live at the level that He has willed.
It does, however, require an effort, often a strenuous effort and much determination, including at times the sacrifice of certain conveniences, whatever they may be.
But considering what is at stake — nothing less than the attainment of peace of mind and inner harmony and even plain physical health — every effort made in this direction is surely worthwhile and most rewarding.
I would suggest that as a start you begin putting on tefillin every weekday morning, and that in addition you say at least a short prayer. The tefillin should be checked first to ensure they are kosher...
