Don’t Be So Nis'pael from Your Scary Yetzer Hara Issues
As long as you keep trying and you learn Mussar and you look for: עֵֶּּצוֹת advice; you’re a Tzaddik for sure, since you aim and focus on improvement. R' Elyashiv Zatzal brings down the Mahralbach (R' Levi Ibn Chaviv, who lived in Yerushalayim in the 1500’s, son of R' Yakov Ibn Chaviv, author of Ein Yakov) who asks, why do Chazal interpret the Passuk: לַעֲשוֹתֶּמְּלַאכְּתוֶֶֹּּוישבֶּלטֶּיא to mean that Yosef wanted to sin? (But in the end he controlled himself). Don’t Chazal always try to stick up for the Tzadikim??
For example, by Dovid Chazal say: כָלֶּהָאוֹמֵּרֶּ דָו דֶּחָטָאֶּאֵּינוֶֹּא לָאֶּטוֹע הֶֶּּשבתֶּנוֶּא Dovid never did any sin whatsoever, even though it looks like he did sin. He answers that Aderaba, having such a big Yetzer Hara to sin, and in the end controlling himself, is a: שְֶּּבֶַּח praise! So don’t be so Nis'pael from your scary Kin'ah, Ta'ava, Kavod and Ka'as issues. It means that you’re Davka great, since you work on yourself, despite having such terrible lusts.
