When a Yid davens with this recognition, he will reach a ripe old age, look at his aged, weak body, and say, “Now I can look back and truly appreciate how dependent I truly was on Hashem’s kindness for every instant of my life, and how much Hashem has helped me at every step.”
This Yid will say Nishmas and give thanks for having been spared from so many illnesses and ailments, and tell himself, “How could I have reached eighty years of age if the Ribbono shel Olam hadn’t spared me from these illnesses! Every moment was a new miracle! How much thanks do I need to give for this?”
And as he davens with such humility and bittul to the Ribbono shel Olam, he understands that it’s a shame to return to the material world just yet. He wants to do this all over again during chazaras hashatz. There, too, he concentrates on what the chazan is saying, because he cannot tear himself away from this prayer of humility and bittul to Hashem’s plan that has brought him so much pleasure.
This tefillah is the most beautiful fusion with bitachon—certainly not a contradiction to it—and it is a sure method to cement and internalize bitachon into our hearts.
