How is it possible that the Melech, the leader of leaders, and Dovid, who was an unusual Tzaddik, should fall into such a cesspool, Rachmana Litzlan? We can suggest that since: בְמָקוֹם שֶׁבַעֲל י תְשׁוּבָה עוֹמְדִ ים א ין צַדִ יקִים גְמוּרִ ים יְכוֹלִין לַעֲמוֹד ברכות לד ב Baalei Teshuva are even GREATER than pure Tzaddikim; and therefore in order to be truly #1, you need to be a Baal Teshuva who is truly on top; nobody can stand in his place since he’s higher.
Without a sin you’re always second best, and a Melech who is on top has to be the BEST! גְדוֹלָה תְשׁוּבָה שֶׁזְדוֹנוֹת נַעֲשוֹת לוֹ כִזְכֻּיוֹת יומא פו ב Teshuva transforms your Aveiros into Mitzvos, and the worse the sin, the greater is the Zechus of doing Teshuva! Such a lowly sin, by doing Teshuva becomes an unusually beautiful Mitzva. The very same wicked: מְ קַ טְ ר ג accusing angel which your sin created, has become a: סַ נ יגוֹר defending angel, i.e., your friend who is constantly sticking up for you.
So the next time you’re depressed about something you shouldn’t have done, suspect that you’re destined for greatness, and Hashem wants you to do Teshuva which will make you much greater than you ever were. And always realize how we are all doing Teshuva, including our greatest Jews like the Cohen Gadol himself, and doing sins are a normal situation. (Editor’s note: This is your attitude to Aveiros done in the past; i.e., never let the Yetzer Hara get you down for what you did, Chas V'shalom. However, in regards to staying away from Aveiros in the first place, a person has to know that an Aveira is worse than cancer, and one may not even expose himself to a situation where he may be Nichshal; i.e., the exposure itself is an Aveira, Kal Va’chomer from our Chiyuv to protect our physical wellbeing. Chazon Ish).
