Your wife and kids are suffering from you, since your temper and your depression are out of control, and your body could revolt, Chas V'shalom. And you are guilty, Rachmana Litzlan, of neglecting: שְ מ ירַ ת הַ גוּף the Mitzva to guard your health, which is of #1 importance and is super: חָ מוּר serious. You’re a Bechina (kind) of being suicidal, Chas V’shalom, just because you aren’t learning enough Inyanei Bitachon.
Many, many people who are always learning Inyanei Bitachon become calmer and happier, and they have loads of Yeshuos! I had an interesting Hashgacha Pratis! The day I decided to write these words, I had a visitor from Bnei Brak. He is a very Chashuva Ponivezer Talmid, who was very close to R’ Shach Zatzal. He told me that R’ Shach was constantly quoting that very Rambam!
R' Chatzkel was a Baal Mussar, whom I consider my Rebbe in certain ways. but R’ Shach was a Rosh Yeshiva, and a Manhig HaDor Mamash. It wasn’t his job to push Shaar HaBitachon, like R' Chatzkel the Baal Mussar and Mashgiach. His constantly quoting that Rambam is a clear message for everyone!
